Don’t know if its because I’ve now gone four weeks without chemo, but I’m feelin’ pretty damned good. Could be psychological … but hey, I’m not arguing. Got a little more energy, a bit more rested, and a tad more enthusiastic. Funny how I didn’t realize how down I was. But then, given that we’re in the dead of winter in Wisconsin, that would get anyone down.
Something else I’d noticed while on Ixempra. Didn’t think much of it at the time, but it felt like my entire body was a little sensitized. Mostly my skin. I know my ankles weren’t swollen, yet wearing socks always left a distinct mark in the skin and a slight pain. Hell, just having my nine year old leaning against me while we sat watching television was uncomfortable. How sad is that?
Anyway, even though it has been only four weeks, I’m pretty sure the hands and feet are improving. They’re still slightly numb, but I don’t think it’s quite as bad as they were. Particularly with the finger tips. I can feel them a bit better than previous and I’m no longer hobbling around like an old woman with physically painful feet. The numbness is still in the toes and the heel, but I’m counting on that fading.
Again, this lessening could be psychological (i.e. wishful thinkin’), but at this point I’ll take what I can get.
There’s always a chance I’ll have to go back on Ixempra … and if its necessary, you’re damned straight I will. Can’t argue with the positive numbers. I’ll no doubt get the same numbing side affects but when you think about it, they aren’t too horrid. To be blunt, I’d say six feet under is far more horrid, IMO.
And Remember …“YOU ARE A CANCER WINNER”